APRIL ? didn't notice.

And I didn't notice it. It's just that my birthday will be this coming April 6 and I don't like it. I am not with the person I wanted to be and it's the same time I am supposed to be graduating if I didn't come here in Australia. The worst thing is that day is probably the happiest day of their life and I'm all SAD and angry about myself. It is just that I think he enjoys too much of his life without me. No, i didn't mean he can't enjoy his life there it is just HERE ? I CAN'T even a single true smile I cannot make :( and I would hate it if the day of my birthday will come :(